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I was playing through a game in facebook, then i started thinking about a make up artist based in New York for Lancome. Her name is Michelle Phan, she works for Lancome, she came out with products, she started to make tiny short movies here and there, she is starting to travel, she even start off from only being a manicurist in china town… “how do i know all this things about her,” i thought.. i figured, i started following her page and blogs only after when i saw one of her make up tutorials, then her sister’s make up tutorials, then her friend’s wardrobe tutorials, then her friend’s hair tutorials.. it’s like magic! they always say.. then i found out she is a founder of eve eden, which i don’t even know what it’s selling, and they didn’t even mention.. but i ‘like’ that page, anyway..

Basically, these people only started doing the things that they love and blossomed through it. No doubt, they’re good at what they do. But then again, it’s all because they have friends to help for things in between, so they never show that they’re stress from work. They’re always smiling, they never complaint, and best of all, the way they make their videos or short movies, they never have any eye bags! amazing, i thought… But as a hairdresser, i know for a fact, this line of work is very stressful. 

I apologize for pointing this out, but i used that fact towards our unselling art in Malaysia, are we really in love of what we’re doing? After i watched arwah P Ramlee’s bio last night, he made the movies based on what had happen in his life, and as a result, best movies of all times came out of his pocket, same goes to arwah Yasmin Ahmad, and arwah Sudirman.. We have too much non realistic drama and too little realistic movies.. 

i caught myself curious about what are the artists doing now, are they busy with their schedule or sitting watching tv like … us. Lazy, like us. So, i thought, let’s watch some of their bios in Youtube.. but there’s nothing interesting, but there’s a lot of interesting things to watch about international artists instead.. Not even self diary like what the glee actor/actresses are doing.. they record themselves talking to the audiences in their own room or houses, and just like that, people watch them in youtube. They’re humble that way. Don’t take it personally, guys, but i did watch a lot of comedies from our country and it’s FUNNY! Harith Iskandar is amazingly funny and right at the points of laughter, every time!!

Like Pesona non-grata, there’s a lot of tabloid about it, because people think it actually happened, the love affair in real life. Like Maria Mariana, i love that movie because i was curious maybe Ziana Zain would really end up with Awie.. Tabloids are good in that sense only after the movies, and not before. Tabloids before movies could only sabotage your work, haha! 

i can comment on these things, people.. No offense, because i don’t have Unifi, or Astro, or a normal TV1 or TV2 or even TV3. I only have internet and still i know more about international shows more than our very own.. that’s just sad.. 

well, just wanted to share.. toodles!

Muahxx!!!

Artists in general, are not only actors or singers.. Artists are people who appreciate art and of course execute them, hoping for the best satisfaction from it. I am a Malaysian, and proud to be all the negative and positive of it all. 

As a malaysian, arts, doesn’t sell. Why?

I am not an actress, singer, film maker, painter or sculptor. But i am a hairdresser. What i do is to make people pretty. From that, i meant, whatever they think they look like, and if it is pretty to their face, they will smile from it. They will say, thank you, and sometimes with a hug. Beautiful.. 

I just finished watching, ’ Filem Melayu tidak laku, betul ke? ’ and it is very real.. The whole 8 parts from you tube, because i don’t have televisions in my place, but a laptop. As a hairdresser, my biggest thing to do in my job, is to listen. And i listen, to every perspective or comments from different categories. Sometimes, it’s a bit too much, but sometimes, you never saw it coming. Art, why is it not appreciated here? Are we not exposed to it enough? but at the same time, we forget, that we actually have a voice. Have anyone tried to build courage and speak out?

What are we expecting from Malay Movies nowadays? Reality? or Fantasy? Are we in fear of reality? or fantasy? 

I go back to my base. When i’m in school.. i was taught not to speak up. If i say something better then the superior, i was demanded to stop talking. Is it true that Malaysian are only in tune to comedy and not serious movies? Is it because our life style is too tough on us, or are we just being spoiled?

Some people, like myself, i love serious movies, and believe me, sometimes you cannot help but to compare. I tend to compare, for example, international and local movies, i compare from lighting, and script to the whole big picture, my eyes tend to see the details of everything. My favorite international actors, Johnny Depp, Angelina Jolie. And some other people, Tim Burton, Evanescence.. But when it comes to local, Ida Nerina is my Angelina Jolie, Harith Iskandar is my Johnny Depp, Haans Isaac is my version of Brad Pitt.. but if we compare financial issues, suddenly it became un fair. We are not brave enough to discover the much more bigger picture, Art.

I personally think, Art, we have so much art, we have so much potential, we owe it to ourselves to discover and execute it from inside out. Art, is how we eat, drink, pray, for example, it doesn’t matter if it’s beautifully engineered, or just simply, lazy. 

I, admit, that i am so much exposed to international ways of thinking or talking, or so that’s what they say. I am so stubborn most of the times, but, its really simple. It’s just the fact of being a bit more open minded and ignoring judgmental comments towards you. Ignore all the tabloids and simply do what you see yourselves doing, and that is already considered as, stubborn.

My favorite types of movies, and maybe many of others won’t like it, are reality shows (because i like to see flaws) and it made me laugh sometimes. Real movies, like A Mighty Heart, Gia, Water for Elephants, Breakfast at Tiffany’s, My Fair Lady, all P.Ramlee movies. Some people might think, old black and white movies are all love stories. Of course it is, but you didn’t see the clear picture, the actors act on it, because they feel like the characters have a meaning to their lives, so it’s an honor to act on the movies. Some reality movies, like war movies, or drug abused diaries, they are scary, because it is what had happened. It is real. 

Sometimes i got really scared when watching those kind of movies, and sad, and angry! But i still had to watch it because, if i’m living in fantasy, then the “third world country”, they call it, pfft! is going to always be the “third world country” what about the kids? what about the education to a better person. Hey, we are sleeping with blankets, we are eating clean food, we are waking up not worrying about babies, but about whether business is going great or not. If you are already comfortable, then what’s the problem of sharing that to the rest? that’s when i see hardworking people grew up in a hard working life since small, which is magnificent! but, you cannot be too proud and denying all the help from your loved ones. That’s when they start to stop helping you, and when you do need help…(…)

This is one of things i love, we are actually taught to have the purity of the heart. If we help with the meaning of just because, just the thought of it felt lovely. But if you help to expect people to help you back, that suddenly felt like a trap.

If you think you can’t give money to the people who can spread the bad news about the world (in the big screen, i might add) so others too can help, then give ideas. If you can’t give ideas, then give a hand, if you can’t give a hand, then others can give you. If you support peace to the world, then help yourselves, to make peace with your neighbor, or your friends, or even to yourselves. When you’re driving, or shopping, or walking, or talking. I saw progress.. Drivers in Malaysia actually said, ’ i’m sorry ’ and they meant it!

Be a bit more open minded, please.. that is all it’s gonna take for a simple mistake. 

We cannot just live in comedies, people.. This is real. Support Malaysian Movies.. We are not living in a book, so don’t expect other to come up with a trend. Make your own trend. Be the first. Appreciate art. Make your own art. Don’t follow, lead. 

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I sit here, looking at the blinking black line, don’t know what to write on this blank page..

Milo.. the last hours we sat with him, covered him with a hot water bottle, towel and some of my old clothes while i lay him down.. the vet asked us to do so, he was under temperature. He was too cold. We were trying to make him warm and comfortable. Maisarah, Shinji, Nadz and me, we were all there for him. Holding him while he lays.

The last moment.. the pupil in his eyes became smaller and smaller every minute, so small, so sharp, almost gone.. ‘He was seeing a very bright light’, Nadz said. A couple of times, He took a couple of breath and letting it go hard like vomiting. But with slow breathing in between. His heartbeat became softer and softer. 

He took his last breath, it looked really painful. His pupils suddenly came back to normal, and i thought he’s back, when he’s not.

Usually, he’ll be by my side on this bed while i write or when i’m with the laptop. But he’s not.

I would hear his voice, but there’s none. He loves to chit chat. Even the vet said that.

Even when i was in cherating, every night i’m on the phone with Nadz, he would put me on loud speaker, so Milo can hear me and i definitely heard him, coz he won’t stop miaowing really close to the phone. As if i’m there.

Now, i find myself thinking about how’s Milo doing at home when i’m out. Every time i wanted to go out, i always made sure the room is cat proof. Even though i have Accalia and SixT at home, and i do think about them, but Milo’s already an automatic reaction to me.

We made him look like he was sleeping like he always does, in a round shape with his paws as his pillow. Closed his eyes and his fur suddenly became so beautiful. He looked beautiful when we buried him.

He is now lying next to Totoro, his brother.. in my mom’s garden. I remember how he missed him. When we lost Totoro, Milo mourned with us, and cheered us up. When we lost Lunar, Milo was there too. 

And he’s the only cat i know that plays fetch. Always made me laugh. 

He was so naughty when a kitten, he made me angry the most. He’s guilty face made him so cute, and he’s begging face too. 

No wonder he talks a lot, cause i am. 

Only Allah S.W.T. knows how much i missed him.. Not a day goes by without my tear flowing, and whenever i suddenly thought he’s at home, i was reminded. And that’s not nice.. He’s gone.. my baby.. 

Oh Love..

How it can Hurt you

When it loves you too.

Love

is so Big,

Hate

is too, the same.

Feelings

is undefined

but it is there,

you know and meet.

How heart is shaped

but never the same.

Wind

is never one,

Water

is never two.

when we have a heart

How can we explain?

How love can hurt you

but Loves you too.